I Admit It – Confessions not Whines

I don’t want to say where I’m living but my town was messed up by flooding 2 years ago. It seemed like things would never be rebuilt or repaired. I work at the towns rec. center Monday, Wednesday and Thursday nights. Monday and Thursday are the men’s basketball leagues and Wednesday is for the women’s teams. My “office”, if you want to call it that, is also full of sport equipment, cleaning supplies, toilet paper, towels and cases of bottled water. The floors are still warped and I can’t even use the closet which once was able to use for storage. The floor in there is still so buckled from the flood its hard to stand on it. But I found out last year the walls were also damaged and dry wall removed. This left three horizontal holes in the wall less than a half inch wide. When I looked through them I could see four shower stalls in the men’s locker room. That’s all that was visible but I know there are twelve stalls all together and these were the four at the end. I can’t see the lockers or toilet area but began looking in after the games were over. I lock the office door and go in the closet and get to see many guys I know naked in addition to the guys from other out of town teams. The second week I was doing this I even saw my boyfriend shower but never had sex with him until 3 months after that. Still never told him I watched him that night.

This virus closed us down but we do reopen next week and I have missed watching all those men. I can never tell any of my friends about this because I have seen some of their fathers, brothers and other of their relatives shower. I have two friends who probably don’t know that their dad’s are not circumcised. One of my friends dad’s has the biggest penis I ever saw. There are a bunch of them that I have seen their brothers and cousins naked and not often but sometimes see guys masturbate. Most of them are circumcised and a lot of them get erections but don’t always masturbate. I feel guilty sometimes because I saw two of my cousins shower and worst was the night I saw my uncle Mac. It cracks me up because some of them probably go in those four back showers because they think its more private there. There are plenty of them that I went to school with and look in my year books to remember them better. Then there are the guys from the other teams who I only know them by watching them shower in the past. I like it best when the over 21 teams play on Thursdays rather than the over 40 league. I know most of them from my town but the older guys are to many of my friends dads or older neighbors I know.

It don’t happen to often but there have been certain time that I got aroused watching some of them. Most of the time is when I see a good looking guy masturbating. Sometimes it just happens if the guy is exceptionally cute. Our one team has two black guys on it but some of the other teams have more. There are three Spanish guys from other teams and two Asian guys. I heard before that most black guys have a bigger penis than average but some do and some don’t just like everybody else. I don’t know the number of guys I have seen naked but am looking forward to going back next week. Some of them men I didn’t want to see them but I only see whoever goes into those four shower stalls. There are three guy friends I have that I see regularly and my boyfriend and me hang out with them and their girlfriends. I know what they look like naked and the one friend (I’ll just call him “T”) I saw him masturbating three times. I know this sounds awful but I wish more of theses guys would masturbate more often. I like seeing them jerking themselves and how they ejaculate. Over a whole year I only saw guys masturbate about 15 to 20 times and every time they all used the soap. Some of them only move their hand to do it but some hold their hand still and move their hips. There were two guys who are in the old guys league that I watched but I only know one of them who works at the gas station. Out of all these guys I have seen naked only one of them had no pubic hair. I heard of guys shaving there but all the rest of them had pubic hair. I’m real careful when I watch them and always make sure the office door is locked. Aside from that I jam a chair under the door knob. The director and two other people have keys. The director is never there that time of night but sometimes one of the other girls are here. I don’t want anybody to ever know that I’m doing this.